A little too not over him

I'm facing a hard times ever since we broke up for what reasons i never know. Its been 3 months plus he ditched me just like that and the cuts are still fresh. It hurts. I never get it why did he acted that way. We were perfectly find and the next thing i know we lost contact just like that! Banciku eh! Those memories with him are stuck in my head. His text messages, his photos etc. and i can't stand not to cry. I miss him so bad. Hanging with my friends does help me get away from thinking of him. Eg. Like badmouthing him ;p hehe. I hate him, i know i hate him and i should be hating him but everytime i kinda check on his fs, fb & msn nicks, seeing him moving on with his life, hooking up wit some girls drives me crazy! And my life would be miserable full of cryings. Sigh. Help me! I need to get over this guy. Its really hard tho, i miss going out with him, i miss holding his hands, i miss hugging him, i miss his kisses, i miss texting him and i miss everything we had together. :') i hate losing you baby. I hope in some times, we'd get back. But at some point, i feel like i dont want you back. (jara baa) but hey, i love you myexboyfriend !